Posted by kalory on October 12, 2003 at 09:07 [152.163.252.196]
In Reply to: Re: all the time posted by Jill on October 12, 2003 at 08:27
While wearing diapers and pullups does turn me on, the acts that I do in them don't (ie #1 and #2's). Like when I do it in public I have a few moments of feeling shame ... like I shouldn't have done it. Then quickly afterward I feel proudly naughty. It is a good feeling to do something you shouldn't; the fear someone will realize what you did in your pants is what keeps me doing it. I don't actually want someone to come up to me and say that they know all about who I am and the things I do in diapers ... but I do day dream about it sometimes. The secret is what turns me on more then the actual acts itself.
Once, I had some time between my biology lecture and physics class, I layed down in my truck ((pillow and blankie always travels with me)). I had my sippy cup full of my special mix of coffee and just thought about what would happen if another girl passed by and looked in my window; I wondered if there was such a girl that would gently knock or tap on the glass with her nail and ask if she could sit with me. Of course by that time I had been wet and messy for about half an hour ... and had another 2 hours before I could go home and change. So my thoughts included her realizing that I had an "accident" when I opened the door for her. I would place the pillow against the other door to cushion my back as I leaned against it, holding my blankie, hoping she wouldn't notice the odor. I like the look some girls get when they figure something out, but decide to keep it to themself and play along. She smiled and looked around in inside, getting hints and affirming what she had just figured out ((which was the diaper wearer is messy, and likes to do this on purpose)). This sinks in and finds that the only thing to do is to take control. She figures that since she is bigger, stronger, and has dry clean panties on, that she has the right. She opens her door, gets out, and pulls my legs far enough to where I am in the universal diaper changing position. I half-heartedly protest, but stop when she slaps me on my thigh - not too hard, but enough that it stung a bit. Before she finds a clean diaper, just for good measure she peeks into the leg gathers to assess the situation. ... I think this part is in most of my day dreams. I'm not sure why they always like to have a peek beforehand, since they already know it is messy and will be changing it anyways:) lol.
Well you get the idea. I do like having a wet diaper a bit more then a poopy one, but having the latter increases my fear factor so to speak ... which is (again) what keeps me doing it in public:)
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