Posted by Jess on July 08, 2005 at 15:25 [22.214.171.124]
In Reply to: Re: Out In Public posted by PK on July 08, 2005 at 09:18
I really want the humiliation of all of my friends and family catching me in a diaper, however, like you said I would then want to be able to erase that memory. Whilst I think I would love the initial humiliation of it, I do not think I would be able to feel comfortable around people who knew about this part of me in an everyday setting again.
But I'm not sure humiliation is the main part of being an AB/DL. I've wanted to wear nappies again since I was about 5 years old, and I've also enjoyed the thought of humiliation from a young age, when I was younger I would imagine how I would feel in a variety of different humiliating situations. I only recently put my desire to be diapered and my want of humiliation together though, they had previously been two different desires.
I guess it's hard to know why nappies can become a fetish, when I longed to wear nappies as a young child it wasnt because the thought turned me on in any way, I suppose I just wanted to go back to childhood and wanted to be babied. I think it's turned into a fetish now, but I don't know if perhaps that's because I figured if I wanted to wear diapers I ought to get something more than just comfort and security out of them.
But saying that nappies aren't always a sexual thing for me, I don't always get turned on when I'm wearing one. I do get enjoyment out of them, but it's not always sexual, often it's the feeling of regression I like. And also it always feels quite naughty to be peeing in a diaper wherever I want as opposed to in a toilet...