Posted by Hoon on February 28, 2010 at 12:18 [98.122.181.147]
In Reply to: Have you analysed the origins of your fetish? posted by Dead_Celeb on February 27, 2010 at 09:46
I like claudia's answer (and Im a bit jealous of yoru husband!! lol). I actually made a few videos about six years ago in college and uploaded them for people to download. One way or another my gf at the time found them and my fetish became public. My fraternity found out, her sorority, my parents her parents, friends, etc. It was extremely humiliating. I went to a therapist for seven months..mostly alone but sometimes with my gf (bless her for staying with me through all of that even though she didn't understand/partake). After seven months the therapist said that it is a part of me and probably always will be. He went on to say that while it is...outside the realm of 'normalcy' it isn't hurting anyone if I do it alone. He said that if it becomes a habit, then it is likely to become an addiction, and would then become harmful pyschologically as I would base future girlfriends/spouses on this criteria and, like anyting addictive, would be unhealthy. As I do not partake in this (panty/diaper pooping) that often and really only do it alone now and then, I've come to accept this side of me. Regardless, after I have done the deed and subsequently masterbated, I usually feel guilty and some what turned off - like, 'jeez, I need to shit my pants to get off?' who knows why I/we do it.
I would like to find someone who is accepting of this and even better, a girlfriend/spouse who would partake in it with me. But I really don't have any hopes of that happening - after it became public in college I think it will be extremely difficult for me to even bring the subject up. Feel free to email/reply with questions!