Posted by mkblain on August 24, 2010 at 04:54 [58.165.72.255]
It did stop me for a while but because I had been doing it since I was 12 the desire to do it again took over. The next week of school was hell but the comments eventually stopped once something else happened that took the focus off me. A few guys and particularly the one that ran ahead to tell everyone at the party never let me forget it. He was a friend with me for the rest of the time we were at school but he always talked about it when we were alone. Thinking about it now makes me wonder if he had an interest in it and was why he always wanted to talk about it.Re: the girl, I was to embarrassed to talk to the girl for a while after but she eventually sat with me one lunchtime and began talking to me like nothing happened. She still went out places with my normal group but we were only ever friend’s. The worst part was she sometimes said stuff at really humiliating times like when we were at camp. One night at the fire someone bought up the subject of poop accidents and she explained in full detail what happened. Not only was that extremely humiliating it was also terrifying. About an hour before I had pooed in my underwear and with all the attention on me while she told the story I was sure someone was going to realize what was in my pants.
Even though I did it once or twice a week and sometimes more I always thought I did well at hiding my secret but a few years ago I discovered that was probably wrong. One of the girls in my class was at the party and once she got very drunk she told me she knew about my secret the whole time we were at school together. It turned out she liked what I did but was always to scared to tell me. She told me she used to spend most of her time looking for opportunities to look at my underwear, which wasn’t hard according to her. I only remember her as another class member so if what she said is true then it makes me wonder how many others knew.
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