Posted by KC on August 27, 2008 at 21:43 [76.115.95.114]
I've been traveling for work since Monday evening, which also happened to be the last time I pooped. Tuesday morning when I got up I already had to go with my usual morning poop which I held. All through the day Tuesday I felt the need but not quite the urge, so holding it was no problem. This morning once again I could feel the need but so far still no urge, though I could definitely tell I was quite full as I felt rather bloated all day and god did my gas stink! Though as the day progressed I continued to feel more and more bloated and that need has steadily progressed into an urge.
Eating dinner seems to have only exarbated my situation and I'm loving every second of it. The last time I was this desperate was several years ago when some greasy food helped soften and expadited the process, and despite my best attempts, and fighting it the whole way home, I lost it just yards from the bathroom because I had dropped my house key in the dark.
But even now I'm having a hard time sitting still and focusing enough to write this, I really have to go! The last time I went to go pee it took me probably just 15 minutes to get the flow started, and I had been drinking coffee all evening so I really had to go, but any amount of pushing to try and pee was actually forcing the poop out. I'm sure many of you would have given in but I'm dying to have an honest to goodness uncontrolled accident.
I'm just afraid that I'll be able to keep in control until into tomorrow, and sadly I'll have to give up and just go before I to work because there's no way I can go to work like this, and even more so having an accident there would be absolutely unaccepted. At the very least I'll be able to do it intentionally in the morning, or just maybe I'll wake-up having my accident in the middle of the night :-).