Posted by Leslie on July 25, 2003 at 17:02 [67.8.240.160]
In Reply to: My earliest Memory posted by darkanghel on July 25, 2003 at 07:53
I, too, started out thinking-- on the surface at least --that this was something I'd just "indulge" my boyfriend in. But since the immediate first response I sent him was something to the effect that "this is something I'd enjoy" he knew better than I that the affinity was there, buried in my subconscious. My choice of words would probably have been a "giveaway" in any case, but he'd known me as a teenager and remembered everything I'd blocked from my memory -- including times when my panties were wet from something other than natural sexual lubrication. Dragging "wetting episodes" as well as other sexual memories out of my incredibly stubborn sense of denial is an ongoing process, but he has been amazingly patient and sensitive and we continue to find mutual points of reference. But there is no question that actually doing it was not easy at first, and it still is difficult at times.
You may need to realize that her willingness to "indulge" you comes from somewhere. Most women would refuse, in no uncertain terms. Those who do not have something in their psyches that allows them to break a powerful taboo -- to do this "for you." It's not something that most women really CAN do, unless the underlying desire is there. The emotional and societal prohibitions are just too strong for most to overcome, regardless of how much they may want to "please you." And frankly many women, as a result of early conditioning, simply do find the whole idea inexplicable and downright repugnant.
So, you have a very positive indication here that this is something you can grow into together. And it could result in an unbreakable bond between the two of you. In fact, it may be a bond that has transcended many lifetimes, but that's just my quirky take on it. I believe that it is the way my boyfriend and I were programmed to "recognize" each other this during lifetime and many others. Well enough of that.
Anyway, best to you both and just remember that love can and does move mountains.
Hugs.