Posted by Lloyd on December 16, 1998 at 17:44
In Reply to: Re: The Birth of a Desperation Lover posted by Bridget Fidget on December 16, 1998 at 07:42
Hi, again Bridget, and you're welcome! I too loved your descriptions, as I've already said earlier. I particularly loved your description of your first deliberate desperation. I was squirming with you! I had a full bladder at the time, and did let go a few little squirts, just for the fun and pleasure of it, but largely I just held it, and kept reading. I noted that at the point of maximum desperation, you actually started leaking, and that you wet your pants a little, to the point that you could see you were wet, but that later on, you had dried to the point that noone could have told that you had wet your pants. This is something I do too. When I'm playing holdit, I will let go occasional squirts and then hold it again, usually for long enough that by the time I have to squirt again, my pants are almost dry or just a little damp. But of course, the smell is still there, even though it changes as the urine dries.
For me there is nothing more erotic than a woman doing this. I could just imagine being there with you, both of us squirming from holding it, and occasionally leaking in our pants. I would see the small wet stains appear in your crotch, spread out into the material over time as your urine evaporated, to almost disappear by the time you have to pee another squirt in the crotch of your panties. At the same time, I would be doing likewise, and the combined smell of drying urine and pre-come in my pants and drying urine and lubrication in yours would serve to incite use to further acts of urinary licensiousness.
There is another erotic aspect for me in this, and in your squirming, and that is the fact that it and any leakage of urine, or outright squirting is an indication of the far greater reserves stored under pressure behind that wetted crotch, held within the gentle curve of your sex, and straining to be let free. The fact that at any instant, you could just decide to let go and pour your urine into and through your flimsy panties to soak jeans, shorts or skirt and chair and/or floor, is almost too much to bear. I love the thought that even so, you hold on, squirming and rubbing, just as I do, and continue to leak in your pants on occasion, until you have the opportunity to either go to the bathroom and pee normally, or just let go and soak your pants. (in my mind, this happens as you rub yourself to the point of enjoyment where you just can't resist letting go one squirt then another and another, until you are peeing in squirts through your pants, around your fingers as they rub.)
This is how I imagine you would continue desperation and squirming to its logical end. Am I even in the ball-park? I've noticed that you don't mention very much in the way of actual wetting, but I know from my own experience of desperation, that the leaking you related to us was probably only one instance of wetting that you have had over what seems to be quite a lengthy period of experimentation with this. So tell me, have their been other notable times when you have peed your pants, particularly times when you have enjoyed it, perhaps even done it deliberately? A pet thing for me is either myself or a female friend peeing their pants sitting on the toilet. Have you ever done this?
Please tell me more - I'm VERY "excited", myself with your detailed and elaborate descriptions of your experiences, and I'd love to exchange more with you. I have put my email address on this post, if you wish to avail yourself, but I'm not expecting you to use it - just thought I'd make it easier for you. Anyway, I'd love to hear from you again. I have much more to tell you, also.
Bye for now.
Lloyd.
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