Posted by Another Wetter on January 22, 2000 at 00:33
In Reply to: wet accident posted by Teenyguy on January 21, 2000 at 19:34
I reckon I know just how you're feeling. The same type of thing happened to me when I was eighteen. I was coming home from college and the bus got caught in bad traffic congestion. I was desperate to pee but didn't want to say anything to my friends on the bus with me. I couldn't even join in the chat towards the end as every muscle was concentrating on not wetting my pants. As we got of the bus, I just lost it and stood on the pavement and peed myself. All my friends watched, so did those getting on/off the bus and passers-by.
I virtually ran home. nearly crying with the shame and embarrassment and thinking my world had dman near ended. I could surely never face college or my friends again, or even be seen out in public. I spent the evening lying on my bed, curled up and contemplating life as a recluse and a figure of fun.
However, as the night wore on, I started to get this funny, excited feeling in the pit of my stomach every time my mind flashed back to the moment of shame. I found myself trying to recall every detail and with every new recollection, my stomach flipped and my heart pounded a little more. By the morning, although I was dreading going into college, I also wanted someone else to mention my accident to me! Needless to say, more than one did! I was that 'figure of fun' for a couple of weeks and yet I found it such a thrill. It's hard to explain, but outwardly I still felt an awful sense of humiliation, but deep inside I just tingled with excitement every time someone reminded me of how/when I had wet myself.
I've never wet my pants in public again but often in private I re-live the incident, never quite recapturing the magical shame of the original, but nonetheless experiencing true pleasure.
I love to hear of others having 'real' accidents and would be fascinated to discover whether that 'first time' feeling was unique to me. You're not on your own teenyguy, keep digging a bit deeper into that memory and remember every detail but enjoy that shame as well - at least for the time being - you won't regret it in the future!