Posted by ppPanties on January 18, 2000 at 19:16
Ever think you’re hiding something from someone, and so sure that whatever it is, that you’re succeeding? I had a wetting experience the other day that brought this question to mind.
Here’s a little analogy that I believe provides a good example of what I mean. I know I’ve done this many times in the past. Remember those times when you were just a little bit drunk, slurring your words a bit, but quite aware of your condition? Have you ever done your best to hide this state from people, or someone in particular, and sure you’re doing a convincing job? Well I have. Paying special attention to how I speak, sure that my performance is perfect. But lo and behold, almost every time someone would say “Are you drunk?” Of course, since I was sure my acting job was superb, I’d say, “Of course not!” After the other day, I’m now not so sure I was all that convincing after all.
It was the end of the day, and as my computer was booting down, I got up to put on my coat I knew I had to pee, but since it was the end of the day, I had waited a bit as I had planned on stopping in the rest room on my way out to the garage. But when I got up, I immediately felt a small burst of pee. I immediately squeezed and stood there for a moment. When this had happened in the past, I would often sit back down... to regroup so to speak. But this time, I wasn’t going to sit down as it was the end of the day, not too many people were still around, and getting out of work isn’t something I like to delay if I don’t have to. Well, you all know about my weak bladder, so I knew the reasonably short walk down the hall would be a bit of a problem. I decided I’d just walk briskly down the hall, not too concerned with how wet I got. I had on a long coat and black pants, so I wasn’t worried that the wet spot would be seen. And no matter how wet I got, I only had to scoot out the door to the garage, which was directly across from the doorway to the rest room.
As I started out down the hall, I didn’t do much to fight it as I was trying to appear as nonchalant as possible. I was spurting considerably (just short of all out peeing) with each step, but again, wasn’t worried about it showing, and, at first, didn’t see anyone in the hallway. All of a sudden one of the men in my department comes out of the men’s room. The men’s and ladies rooms are divided by the elevator in the middle. He was just passing the elevator and I said hello. He said hello back but I immediately noticed that look on his face. There was no mistaking it. I have absolutely no doubt that he noticed my stride.. the stride I thought was just a normal looking stride. Of course I kept walking and went right into the rest room, which he saw. Which also confirmed what I was sure was his obvious suspicion. I was very wet by the way, but I was fairly confident I was holding my coat closed in front of me. Now I have an idea what my posture must’ve looked like. I’ve seen it many times with my daughter, when she was young, when she’d always deny having to go to the bathroom, and still today, as a young woman in her 20’s. It’s that posture I’m sure she thought she was in control of and hiding the fact she needed to pee badly.. that same posture I’m sure was evident when I got that look (I think she must have inherited her mom’s bladder).
Kinda makes ya think, doesn’t it? I wonder how often we’re so sure of our actions, thinking we’re so in control, when in fact aren’t hiding it (whatever ‘it’ is) as well as we think. I’m now thinking I have to be a LOT more careful, especially at the office. I have walked down that hall MANY times with urgency, and have come across other employees in my path.
I guess there’s a moral to this story. And that is that were not always what we seem.. or think we are, whether it’s our posture, actions... or words.
I just found this to be an interesting, and enlightening, observation. Hope you don’t mind that I shared it.