In Reply to: Bedwetting story 9 posted by Paul on December 07, 2004 at 20:09
It's hard to describe the enjoyment I get from wearing diapers and wetting my pants and bed, but I guess like for most it started when I was young. My Mom used diapers on me as a punishment when I wet myself too much. For example, when I came home from school I would often take a little nap, and almost always ended up wetting the bed, couch, carpet, or wherever I was sleeping. She got so tired of spanking me that she made a rule if I wet three times in a row, I had to wear diapers and plastic pants to bed. This continued even through high school. Her intentions, as always, were to embarrass me. And it worked!
I hated wearing the diapers. When my Mom pulled off my panties I felt like such a baby. She said that if I acted like one, I'd get treated like one. And it usually worked - I'd stop wetting for a while. A week or two in diapers and I would be dry for a month or so. Then boom - three times in a row and back to basics. She even sent my girlfriend up to my room once during my nap, knowing full well that I was in diapers. That afternoon I had been particularly mad at my Mom, and had wet myself as soon as she left. So I was lying on the bed, when in through the door comes my girlfriend. My Mom had sent her up on purpose to embarrass me! Although she knew I wet the bed occasionally (it had happened at her house a few times), she knew nothing about the diapers. I begged her not to tell anyone I still wore them, and explained that I had a bladder infection and that it was hard to control myself. Luckily she bought it.
Another place I sometimes wet myself was in my sleeping bag. It happened several times, all but once when I was camping with my family. After a while it became a family joke to tell me to get my 'pee-roll' as we were going camping. I don't really know, but maybe there was something safe and womb like about my sleeping bag. I could crawl in and become invisible. I would lay next to my cousins and suck my thumb, and they never knew. That's when I would empty my bladder, soaking me in a warm secure wetness. Once I wet my bag at a slumber party. I had tried not to, having gone potty before bed, but somehow I still woke up wet. It was a major trauma, one for which I was teased for months.
Wetting my bed like a big baby is the ultimate for me. Although I wet a lot on purpose, I still have real accidents about 4 or 5 times a month when I wake up wet. For a while I tried to stop wetting the bed when I sleep, because of the embarrassment factor when I'm travelling or staying at someone's house. But then I realised the incredible feeling in my snatch when I woke up wet was something I couldn't do without. So now I have a plastic cover on my bed all the time, and I have to make my bed so my roomies won't find out. I also have to wash my sheets when no one is around.
It's funny, but when I wet my bed last night I got up to wash my sheets right away, but I didn't bother to change my pajamas and panties. I was walking around the house in my wetness! If I'm so concerned about hiding my sheets, I don't understand why I like to walk around in my wet clothes. Maybe it's the thrill of getting caught wet, while at the same time still feeling ashamed of my bedwetting and diapers. I was standing at the washer, putting in my wet sheets, and sucking my thumb! I know I feel so embarrassed and humiliated when I do get caught, but at the same time I also love it! Any ideas?
The last time I wet in front of someone was my roomie at the previous place where I boarded. We were watching TV in my room, and she was on the floor while I was sitting cross legged on my bed. I had to pee and I started laughing. All of a sudden I started to wet a bit. I caught me totally by surprise! I squealed, and she asked me what the matter was, but I said 'nothing', and we went back to watching TV again. But for some reason that I still don't understand, in the space of a few seconds I decided to wet full on, so she could see. I just sat there and peed all through my shorts and over the bed. I told her I was wetting myself, and her jaw just dropped. There was pee all over my quilt and down my thighs.
I got up to change, and she couldn't keep her eyes off me. I apologised as I pulled down my shorts, and found it a real turn on that my panties had gone completely transparent. It was really awkward for a while, until she asked me if it happened a lot. I blurted out that I have a weak bladder and that I wet my pants quite often. All she said was 'Wow!'. I asked her not to tell anyone, because I'm a little too old to still be wetting myself. At the end of the show she went back to her room, so I got up and locked the door and then played with myself for the next hour.
Another time I came back to the room and was so horny I couldn't even wait until I went to bed. I just lay down on the bed and rubbed my crotch through my jeans, and pretended I was a little girl again. I started to suck my thumb, and made a little wet spot in my pants. I fantasised that someone was trying to pull my pants down to change me, but I was too embarrassed and wouldn't let them. I had the waistband of my jeans down to about mid thigh, but the crotch still stuck in my pussy, and my legs closed tightly. Even so, the little wet stain in my panties was still visible. Then I quickly pulled my pants back up, and completely let go! Wetting myself on the bed without a plastic sheet or towel, I was just in heaven. Afterwards I played with myself for hours, and dreamed that there was someone there to give me a spanking.
I love wearing diapers too because they make me feel so babyish, but I'm finding it hard to get some that fit properly. I've been wearing them to work lately, and they give me a chance to wet without getting caught. I'm not too adventurous, and generally stay in my cubicle which is near the door to the bathroom, although I did venture out once to the photocopier. I'm a bit afraid of someone hearing my plastic pants. I love the snug feeling of the diaper and the pressure against my snatch. When I first started to wet I was very nervous, and only let out small spurts for about 3 or 4 seconds. The first time I did it properly I had on a purple peasant style dress, and I just sat there and peed myself until my bladder was empty - and the diaper held it all! My nipples were so hard, and my thumb just ached to be sucked, but held off until I got home.
I have to be careful at work though with the smell of pee - either in my panties or diaper. More than once I've been sitting at my desk and been confronted with the smell of my own naughtiness coming from between my legs. I love to be bad at work! I'll sneak a peak sometimes under my dress at the wet stains in my pants, or at the bulging wet diaper. Usually when I wear a diaper to work I wear panties underneath. So if I have to lose the diaper in a hurry, I still have something wet next to my skin. And it feels so good pressed tightly against my clit.
Another thing I like to do is suck my thumb. I find there are times when I'll feel guilty about being a grown woman who still wets herself and wears diapers, but I never felt that way about sucking my thumb. As I got older I realised I wasn't ever going to quit (around 16 or 17), so I started to suck my thumb more openly than before. When some of my friends found out, I lost a few of them who refused to associate with such a 'baby'. That was sad, but I felt they should accept me for me. I love to suck my thumb when I'm on the phone. While the other person is talking, my thumb is in my mouth, but then I have to pull it out quickly to answer them. It's fun to give short answers like 'huh', 'yeah' etc while my thumb is planted firmly in my mouth. At times they have asked if I was eating something. I want to say 'yes - my thumb' but usually I say candy. Silly, but fun.
Nowadays I always end up sucking my thumb at the movies. I went to see 'A Few Good Men' starring Tom Cruise when it came out, and I remember that I sucked my thumb the whole way through it. It was a great movie! I even raised my skirt and wet right in my seat. And the place was packed! The people to my right refused to look at me once they saw me sucking my thumb, so I thought I could wet myself on the sly, as I didn't want to miss anything. At the end of the film, the people behind got a show if they were paying attention, because I had to stand up to pull my skirt back down. So they probably saw my wet panties!
I bought several pairs of the kind of panties I wore when I was young. They are primary colors mostly, and thicker, with little raised dots. I hold my hand between my legs, while I pretend to have a little accident, and it makes me feel like such a baby. I have been wearing them every day (including right now - a pair of raspberry colored ones!). I peed myself about an hour ago, then lifted my skirt and rubbed myself a bit before sitting down to write. So here I am, trying to write a letter, pausing every now and then to rub my breasts through my tee shirt, suck my thumb, or pee a little bit in my pants!
Right now I think I have to stop, because writing this has made me feel so hot that I don't think I can last out any longer - in fact I think I'll just let it all go. I'm laying on my side on the bed, and pee is pouring into my pants and down over my thigh. Now I've rolled onto my back and it's flooding all over my pussy and down between legs all under my butt. Oh my God, I'm soaked! I truly can't believe what a baby I am, and that it feels so damn good! I'm going to have to stop now and finish myself off. I wish I had someone here to give me a spanking for being so naughty!
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