In Reply to: Bedwetting story 10 posted by Pal on December 07, 2004 at 20:10
I'm not convinced it's a good idea to write about this, but since you asked, here goes. It's probably best I do this now while I'm feeling OK about it. Sometimes I get really scared about my feelings of wanting to be like a baby and wear nappies, and I worry that I'm not like my friends. I'm worried too that I'm still a virgin at 20, and wanting to play with myself in a wet nappy is hardly the way to remedy that situation!
When I was younger I had a bit of trouble for a while with a urinary tract infection, and wet my bed a few times. Mum decided to put me back in nappies, and for some reason I just kept wearing them. When I went to board with my Aunt, I switched to all-in-ones, and I had about four pairs. My Aunt was happy to wash them, and the rest of the family up there knew that I wet the bed anyway. I still prefer proper nappies, but where I am now in college accommodation, I have to use disposables and pull-ups.
I enjoy going to bed in nappies and having accidents during the night, but what is worrying me is that I know I'm becoming lazy, and I'm not trying as hard as I should. In fact, maybe I've never really tried as hard as I should. I always tell myself that I couldn't help it, but deep down inside I know that many times I am doing it on purpose.
Even when I was younger I knew I was often doing it on purpose, but I still wouldn't admit it to myself. Mum always asked me if I had to do a wee before I went to bed, and I used to say no sometimes even if I knew I did. I liked it when she changed me when I was still feeling full. Then I used to wet my nappy while I was still half awake in bed. And on many occasions after waking up during the night I couldn't be bothered getting out of bed, and I'd just lie there and wet my nappy. Deep down I knew I loved the feeling of a wet nappy, and always wet myself again in the mornings.
I still love the feeling of being wet in the mornings. It's a bit embarrassing, but I still wear nappies when I stay at home, and I love telling Mum I've wet my pants - she never gets cross. I just walk in and tell her I've wet my nappy, and I honestly feel about two when I go in to tell her. Sometimes I have to admit I feel all excited, but of course I don't tell her that.
I also used to lie to Mum when we went out in the car. I'd start the trip with a full bladder, and then just sit there in the car and wet my pants as we went along. Mum would always help me if I needed it when we got anywhere. I used to like it when we went to our relatives place, and I had to change when we got there. Then on the trip back I was often put in a nappy or a Depends, mostly lying down on the back seat. On the way home I'd lie down on the seat and watch the street lights go past and warmly wet my nappy.
Even now at college I still play a game where I ask myself if I need to do a wee before bed, and I pretend that I don't even when I do. At college I mostly only wear pullups to bed, and even though they're not as good as a nappy and plastic pants, I still don't go to the loo before I slide under the covers, even though I should. It makes me feel really naughty, like I'm a big baby.
The first time I saw clothes with baby prints for adults, I got really excited and wanted some, but I never got them. What I do have though is a tee shirt with a bear and blocks on it that I've had for years that was way too big then and still fits. If I put that on, and a pair of full briefs over my nappy, I look just like a baby. I also like wearing overalls. I can't believe how babyish some girls look in overalls and still go out. Sometimes if I'm looking at myself, I get nice feelings and I wet myself sort of half on purpose, then lie on my bed on my front with a cushion between my legs. I love having the cushion pressing on me, and my arousal starts off real slow. It's like looking forward to something you really like and then finally getting it, and just enjoying the taste for a long time. I can get like that too if I pull my tracksuit pants right up and hold them while I dance.
As I lie on my bed I concentrate on the feeling of my wet nappy, and imagine that I have to ask someone to change me. I pretend that I suddenly can't talk properly because I'm a baby, and I suck my thumb and talk baby talk to myself. Then at the end I go all jerky, not really stiff but like squeezing all your muscles at once then stopping, a few times one after the other. Sometimes it seems like everything else has disappeared and I am just a ball of muscles. I know it sounds nuts but sometimes I feel like I'm just a big pussy sitting inside my hot wet nappies, and nothing else exists for a moment. At this moment I start wetting again, and the feeling is overwhelming.
I also like wearing nappies and suck my thumb while I watch TV. It's so nice to put on a nappy, and curl up in front of my favourite program, and not have to worry about the toilet. At these times the lines between wetting on purpose and not trying can get really blurred, as when I've got a nappy on, there is not much reason to try. Like when there's something good on, and I feel I need to go, I think "I must get up and go to the loo - I'll do it in the next ad - it's lucky I've got a nappy on." Then I go back to concentrating on the show, and the next thing I know I'm doing it in my pants. But when I first feel the warmth spreading around my pussy, I don't go rushing off to the bathroom - I just sit there all cosy and enjoy myself.
But with all this going on in my head (and in my pants!), you can see why I get worried about myself. On the one hand it does seem to be OK to behave like a baby and to have accidents on purpose in my pants. It doesn't hurt anyone, and it's easier to do it than to try to stop thinking about it like I try to sometimes. It doesn't make any difference the next day if you let yourself do it or not.
Since being involved with Wet Set though I have come to realise that lots of other girls are like me, and that wanting to be a baby and wear nappies is not so weird afterall. And the best part is that I know now there are lots of boys who would like to have a girlfriend in nappies. Well that's me!
None of my friends know that I wet my bed or my pants, but recently I had a good opportunity to tell them, even tough I didn't take advantage of it. We had gone to the pub for a little while, and then went and sat on the golf course to watch the fireworks over the city. When we had to pee, the guys went in the bushes, and so did some of the girls, but two friends of mine, Sandra and Cas, just sat there. I was wearing a pull-up under my black jeans with a long jumper (to hide any bulges), so I just wet my pants quietly. Sandra said she didn't want to go in the bushes because it was too obvious. I said I didn't think that mattered, but she said 'watch this', and pulled her dress out around her a bit and pissed in her pants. Then Cas did the same thing. They said it was bad luck I had jeans on, and that I must have a cast-iron bladder. If only they knew!
Sandra even suggested that I could still do it because of my long jumper and black pants, and Cas said should we have all worn nappies to the fireworks like the astronauts! I wanted so much to tell them but something held me back. We even talked about pants wetting for a while, and Cas told us how she had wet her pants playing touch football last week, and how Evan had tried to feel her wet knickers at half time. She said she was so embarrassed that she had to leave the game and go back to college to change her pants. Apparently she often ends up wet when she plays touch or hockey.
I got back to college at 4am, and was wet down to my socks. I knew everything was full, but I had to go again as we were walking home, and just let it go in my pants. I went in the back of college, and got changed in my room, and put my nappy deep down in the wheelie bins and everything else in a bag and went to the laundry and put it all in a bucket and soaked it. Sandra came in, and said 'Are you sure you didn't wet your pants?' I said I had a little, and she suggested that next time I should wear a dress.
I was so naughty recently when I stayed with my Aunt and cousins last week during the holidays. I knew it was an opportunity to act grown up, but I just couldn't help myself wanting to be the 'baby'. They had rented a house at the beach, and when I discovered that my Aunt had put a plastic sheet on my bed I just had to wet it. Then for the rest of the week I was in nappies for bed. At 20 years old I was sitting around before bed in big fluffy nappies and plastic pants watching TV with my thumb in my mouth!. The plastic pants even made a swishing noise as I walked. It was excruciatingly embarrassing, but at the same time I loved every minute of it. And I don't even know why!
So that's my story. Where I go to from here I don't know. It's kinda scary to have these feelings, but they make me feel so sexy! At least now I know I'm not alone and I look forward to finding a guy who wants to change me when I'm a naughty girl.
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