CANDE WET DREAMS
Wet & dirty diapers - wet & dirty panties!
I was running late for class again. I was all dressed, including the diaper under my clothes, but then I felt a familiar urge - I needed to poop! At first I thought maybe I'd just take a quick dump in my diaper, but the more I got into it the hornier I got. So I didn't just need to poop, I needed to cum too! i took off my clothes, except for my diaper, leotard and socks. I like wearing a leotard over my diaper, as it helps keep everything nice and snug and tight against my butt. I farted a few times and pulled my leotard up tight between my ass cheeks, and then I did it - I was a dirty girl and did a big shit in my diaper!
When I come home from school and my panties are wet or full of poop, Daddy says I'm a big baby, and puts a diaper on me. But he doesn't know I just did it on purpose in the driveway! When I wet my pants watching TV, he says I'm naughty and lazy, and need to be diapered, but he doesn't know I've just had my hand in my pants playing with myself. And often when he diapers me he doesn't know that I haven't been to the bathroom for hours, and that I'm looking forward to wetting and messing myself.
Then I started to have naughty thoughts. I wished I had the perfect boyfriend here to smash that ball of poop against my ass! That would really make me explode with pleasure. And I'd want him to tell me what a dirty little girl I was and spank my butt really hard. I'd want him to tell me I was too old to be wearing diapers and messing them. And then I'd want him to fuck me! I'd want him to fuck me so hard that I even got poop in my pussy, and his cum would mix with the poop!
But Daddy, there's something else I have to say sorry for. While I was squishing my bottom in the mess and doing a big pee pee on the floor, I started to get that special tingly feeling. You know the one I told you about - the one that feels really nice. Oh Daddy, I was very naughty. I touched myself there and rubbed really hard - I rubbed and rubbed, and it felt so good and I couldn't stop doing it - and then it felt so wonderful that I went all stiff and I could hardly breath. I liked that a lot Daddy. Is it ok if I do that some more?
I like it when you take control. I like it when you make me wear diapers, all the time. I like it when you lay me down on the bed, with my legs wide apart and clean me up after I've had accidents. I like it when you slide the clean diaper up my legs. I like it when you tell me I'm not old enough to use the potty yet and I have to stay in diapers until you decide when I'm a big girl. But I don't want to be a big girl - I want to be your little diaper slave girl forever!
Pretty much every "expert" on the subject says that no bedwetter ever wets the bed on purpose. I call bullshit on that. And not just from my own experience, but that of many others I know. In fact, there are 5 kinds of "accidents on purpose" that I have enjoyed over my life. The first is when I don't use the bathroom before bed. I feel super naughty laying there being diapered, giving assurances I'm going to try to be a big girl, but knowing full well what I plan to do. Then I lay in bed, getting sleepy, and just before I fall asleep I delight in the warmth spreading to all my special places.
There is never a set time for true pleasure - it happens accidentally, literally! Like when I'm relaxing in my bedroom in a diaper and something just happens. Like I wet or poop myself or both. Then a wave of sexual arousal spreads from between my legs over my whole body, and I know I'm going to have to masturbate myself. There's nothing that could stop me - it's an overwhelming need for true pleasure!
It's a lovely warm morning, and I've made myself a cup of warm chocolate, but it's about to get very warm in my special place. I have a diaper pad in my panties, bunched between my legs and over my pussy, just so I can warm up down there and get me in the mood to go back to bed and masturbate. By the time I'm done, my pussy will be all aroused and my clit and nipples hard - perfect for a naughty girl to play with herself, and put her fingers where she's not supposed to!
But it's not going to stay clean and dry for long, because I lied when Daddy asked me if I needed to use the bathroom. I often do that, so I can wet myself before I fall asleep. But this time I need to poop too, and it's making me feel excited. I know it's naughty, but I'm going to do it anyway - stop dancing for a minute so I can wet and mess myself! Mmm - it feels so good - all hot and wet and poopy and squishy! Should I tell Daddy, or just pull my jammies back up and go to bed?
During the day I am behind myself, hidden. But when night comes, you don't have to be a chamber to feel totally haunted. When the night comes it is no longer satisfying to hide, the expression has to be complete. So when I get home I want to express and while I'm doing it I want you to see me. I want you to see that my diapers are clean but my vagina gets wet second by second... I barely touch my vagina with my hand and you can already hear how it gets wet, it's ready to be penetrated.
Last night I dreamed of you again. You are the man I always want to meet. You are the man who slaps my butt when I'm dirty, but you are also the one who never lets me use the bathroom. You are the one who wants to keep me as your little girl, always in diapers, and always wetting and messing myself. You are the one who diapers me at night and changes me in the morning. You are the one who changes me when I'm dirty and wipes my bottom. And I promise I will love you, honor you and always be your dirty little girl. As I was dreaming of you last night, I wet myself in my sleep.
But that's not all I'm filling - I'm gonna fill my diaper as I think about her. I imagine seeing her pee and poop stained panties under her skirt - I imagine us exchanging panties, and giving each other knowing looks as we see both are dirty - I imagine her sitting on my face in her dirty panties - I imagine her wearing diapers and everything naughty and dirty about her I can think of! As I go through these thoughts about her, I become excited and shit myself - and then I have to masturbate until I cum!
A drawing is a mixture of sensations, ideas and memories that are captured on paper. While I draw I have feelings that are difficult to express with words, and that is why I draw. I draw to bring out everything that dies inside. While drawing I want everything to come out of me - and not just on paper!
It's been a long week, one of those where I can't find myself, day after day pretending to be someone that I am not. I have to work all week trying as hard as I can to be big girl, but that's not who I am. I wish I didn't have to use the toilets at work - I wish I could just do it in my panties instead like I want to. I would only use the restrooms to clean up and... masturbate!! Or even better, I wish I could wear diapers to work, so I could just wet and poop myself whenever I felt like it!
I thought maybe a tiny poop in my panties wouldn't be noticeable - maybe I could do just a little ball of poop. But I should have known - once I started pooping I couldn't stop myself! It kept coming, making a big rounded bulge in my panties. By then I was past the point of no return - what the hell - so I pissed myself too. But I was so turned on - it was one of the best panty pooping and wetting moments of my life. And my therapist was about to get one of the biggest surprises of his life - who knows what was about to happen!