CANDE WET DREAMS
Wet & dirty diapers - wet & dirty panties!
I'm sad because Daddy says it's time for me to grow up, but I don't want to be a big girl - I want to stay little. I want to keep my toys, and my baby bottle and I want to be able to suck my thumb whenever I want. But most of all I want to stay in diapers - I don't want to use the big girl potty, and I definitely don't want to use the toilet - it's big and scary and makes a loud noise. He says I've got one more day, so I have to say goodbye to Kitty - how sad is that! I've got my most babyish diaper on today, and I plan to stay in it all day - it's very wet and cold right now from an earlier accident, so the first thing I'm going to do is warm it up.
There are two kinds of cozy places - first is a space in the house, hopefully a bit hidden away, where I can be a dirty little girl in my diaper. The second kind of cozy place is between my legs! It feels cozy down there even before I've done anything, having my private parts and bottom all snug inside a diaper. But when I start being naughty, that cozy feeling is magnified over and over. First it's the glorious hot rush of hot pee swirling around my pussy and running down to my bottom before soaking into the diaper. And then it's the even better feeling of warm poop - pressing against the diaper, wanting to come out, and then spreading over my ass cheeks and between my legs. That's the kind of cozy feeling a dirty little girl like me can never resist!
I have an important business lunch to attend, which I've been trying to arrange for a long time. I'm all dressed up and got my best clothes on, and of course I have a diaper on underneath my skirt, just in case of any accidents. I'm a little worried that someone might notice, especially if I poop myself. What would I say? What if they think I'm disgusting? But just thinking about the possibility of wetting and filling my diaper at the lunch is starting to make me horny, and I find myself wanting to do it right now. Maybe it's for the best that I wet and mess myself before I go - less chance of doing it later on. And it's probably for the best if I cum now too, so I don't start to feel horny at the meeting.
At the start of this video I'm laughing hysterically, but I don't even know exactly why. I'm sure though it's to do with my current confused mental state. I know what I want - to be a baby girl in diapers all the time, and to use them whenever I need to - but sometimes the guilt can be overwhelming. It distresses me that I can't tell anyone, even close friends, about my most important desires. I don't like that I have to keep it big secret. I would love it to be out in the open, but that can never be. I could probably tell them almost anything else except wanting to be diapered. I know what they'd think of me and that's scary. How can something so harmless be so taboo?
I start this video with my diaper already filled and bulging with poop. The video is not about that - it's about what happened after. I went into the bathroom to clean myself up when something came over me - a desire from the deep distant past, a very dirty desire, a desire to be the naughtiest and dirtiest little girl ever. I first admired myself in the mirror, running my hands over my breats and nipples, then stepped into the bath. I took off my dirty diaper and smeared some of the poop from my bottom over myself, but then I took the plunge - I pressed the dirty inside of the diaper against my breasts - from that moment on there was no turning back!
I'm sitting inside with nothing to do, just sitting on the floor, leaning back against the wall wearing just a black top and purple panties. I've got my legs apart, and it's not too long before I start exploring between them. I stroke the crotch of my panties, sometimes pressing on my clit and also touching the little damp patch. As I do this, I get the idea of what I could be doing, and could be doing quickly becomes WANT to be doing - and that is of course wetting and pooping myself. What better way to liven up an otherwise boring day by being a dirty girl! So I turn on my side, give my butt a quick smack, touch the damp patch with my finger and then hold it to my nose. As I breathe in the scent, the decision is made!
What do naughty, dirty little girls do when they wake up in the morning? First, whether they've wet their diaper during the night or not, they happily wet or rewet themselves. That one is to be expected, as all girls who still wear diapers to bed would regularly do that. Second, the naughtier ones don't get out of bed for their morning poop - they stay in bed and do it in their diaper instead. Why? Because filling their diaper is a major turn on, leading to the third thing - they masturbate their little pussies because they are so excited and can't help themselves - who could resist jiggling their pussy when she's wearing a hot, pee soaked, poop filled bulging diaper?
I suffer from mood swings which are hard to control. Sometimes I can feel down or sad or angry, and other times really elated. And often my mood can swing on a dime. Today, for no apparent reason, I was feeling sad, angry and frustrated, crying into my hands and sobbing in a crouched position on the floor. I was breathing hard, slapping and grabbing my diaper between my legs to try to ease my frustrations. I was beside myself! Then I took off my top, which I managed to do successfully, but when I tried to take off my skirt, it got stuck, and my frustrations boiled over. However, as I sat there seething, I barely noticed that I'd started to wet myself - while throwing my little temper tantrum I actually had an accident! That's when things changed.
I have a red book which is a combination diary and scrapbook, containing all kinds of secret stuff. A lot of it is about the beginnings of my desire to be a dirty little girl, and my thoughts and feelings about it. Some of those thoughts express my feelings of guilt or concern, and my inability to stop myself from doing it. Looking through it now is like reading letters from my younger self - dirty letters! I can see myself moving from being worried about my desires to slowly accepting them. Now of course I've totally given in - I fully accept that I'm a dirty little girl, and that wanting to be diapered, and wanting to wet and mess myself is absolutely ok. In fact it's more than ok - it's a full blown sexual turn on that I can't do without!
Ever since I started sharing my innermost dirty sexual desires, I've come to rely more and more on your encouragement to do it in my diaper more often. I did it a lot before, but now I do it all the time, masturbating in wet and poopy diapers every day. The more messages I get telling me how much you like seeing me in a bulging full diaper turns me on so much - I like to read them while I wet and poop myself - I read them in bed at night with my hand down the front of my diaper - and I read them both before and after I cum. So keep encouraging me and telling me what you want to see me do.
I love the feeling of a poop filled diaper bulging under my jeans! I love doing it with my jeans on, as I enjoy having to push harder against the tight material. This time though I've chosen to pull my jeans down, so you can better see what I'm doing, but I definitely intend on pulling them back up again and wearing them for the rest of the day. So with my jeans down around my knees I first piss myself, and then push out a big monster poop. Then I turn to sit on the step, my jeans now around my ankles - I so love sitting down after I've pooped myself - it can often be the best part of my dirty games. I love how my weight squashes the bulge, pushing the poop into all my privates places!
I was getting ready for the party when I had a very naughty thought - so naughty in fact that I started to get aroused. So I sid my hand inside my diaper to check, and sure enough my clit had gone hard. My thought was to wet my diaper and wear it to the party, but I really wanted to do both - I wanted to poop myself too. I could easily get away with a wet diaper, but someone might smell a poopy one. I started by thoroughly wetting myself, completely soaking my diaper. As wonderful as that felt though, it still wasn't enough, so I sat up on the vanity table and pushed - I pushed out a dirty smelly poop!
I was trying to be a big girl like Daddy wanted, but I needed the potty and he wasn't around to help me. I did my best to hold on, but it was no use and I ended up having an accident in my diaper. I knew Daddy would be disappointed in me, but what choice did I have? As soon as the pee pee started pouring out of me, soaking into my diaper, I knew the poopy wouldn't be far behind. And sure enough, even before I'd finished wetting, I dirtied myself too. So despite my best efforts, I was once again a wet and dirty little girl - all messy and stinky! What would Daddy say?
Do you think I look cute - my hair in pig tails, my blue baby pants, pacifier in my mouth and holding my Hello Kitty? And I've got a diaper on underneath it all of course. I've got a little story to tell you about a game Daddy made me play, and giggling nervously, it soon becomes obvious that I'm really embarrassed telling you. But recalling the situation is also really turning me on, as is the fact that I'm doing a striptease down to my diaper at the same time. By the time I'm down to just my diaper, I'm super aroused and the only solution for that is to wet and mess my diaper!
Whoever says that diapers can't be sexy has obviously never worn one, wet one or most importanty pooped one. I can assure everone from first hand experience that diapers are the sexiest thing ever - the feeling of the fresh diaper bunched between my legs, pulled snugly against my sex - the rush of warmth around my pussy, flowing down to my bottom when I wet myself - and the hot arousing feeling of a poop pushing against the diaper and spreading out over my bottom and through my legs to my pussy. I can't think of any feeling which is more sexy, erotic and a full blown turn on than that! That's why I wear them, that's why I wet them, and that's why I poop them - because nothing else makes my clit so hard!