Posted by Sara on August 31, 2000 at 16:35
I found this site a couple of weeks ago and have been reading it with great interest. The last time I had seen it before that was maybe about two years ago or more when my husband showed it to me. What I am interested in is to understand what it is to be a pants-pooper - why do some people develop this interest, how does it does it make you feel, how strong are the desires involved, etc.
My reason is this: my husband died recently, and he had not long ago told me about his fetish (is it a 'fetish'?). He had told me with great difficulty and embarassment, and it was obviously an important part of him to feel he had to share it despite this. Although I never understood the turn-on, I tried to be understanding and I remember we looked at a few websites, like this one, together. (I will always remember one which told a hilarious story of a young woman pooing her pants and being caught by a neighbour - true or invented, it conjured up the very essence of embarassment!). I feel terrible now that I was not able to indulge more in what he clearly wanted to enjoy with me, and wish I had been more adventurous. We even had arguments about it, which I now regret so much, even though he always apologised for them. It is now nearly two months since he died, and this is the one area of our life together that I have not dared talk about to anyone else, which makes it eat away at me.
I'm now not so sure I know exactly what I am even after. Does anyone know for example about any sites which are more focused on information about panty-pooping from a psychological point of view (rather than stories and fun stuff). Have you seen any articles written by partners trying to understand it all? Maybe I should really go and see a shrink, and at least I could explore all this in confidence. Until then please do post anything that might help me understand more.